Have you ever felt a heart break? A betrayal? A sadness? Cheating? Helplessness? If yes, then you can understand how I am feeling. Yes, I am an alone girl but it was never my choice. I am a sad girl. The heart-breaks were never my options. The tears and sadness were never so dear to me. Have you ever felt love,lost,lust,longing,depression and pain all at once? Do you know how it feels to be beautiful and lovely but lifeless and hurt at the same time? Have you ever cried so much that tears refuse to come out?He was just playing safe. The world is not even black and white anymore…just blurred! The dark images of your past haunt you so bad that it bleeds but you can do nothing just to watch it silently. The silence become the permanent part of your life. You cry,shout,curse but no one listens. You need a break, an escape but there’s no way out. You are just helpless. Has it been same to you too? It was never in your hands and you knew he’s not the one for you but you chose to shut your eyes and surrender. Why? Because the feeling of delusion was much beautiful than the comforts of truth! I don’t know anything anymore. there’s a war going on in my mind and my diary knows it. Would you like to turn few of it’s pages?
So,I was not good enough but he took some 8 months,2 weeks,4 days,1 hour,32 min,6 sec to say this….to be exact!
But You said “You will never go.”
Was I always this helpless? God Damn it! It hurts!
You ruined my life and left me alone. It’s brutal! Isn’t it?
You are right. It’s my fault.
It’s all blurred again. Never knew the light was a lie!
For a while I thought I have found my world.
Everybody leave me. It’s normal.
It’s always no guy or wrong guy.
I know, I will never be the same.
Sometimes escape is the only option.
My capacity to fall for wrong guys is truly commendable. Liars!Cheaters!Cowards! It’s destiny or just me?
I always knew you are bad but forbidden is tempting. Isn’t it?
Good shower,proper meal, my friends and a regular smile. Just need few basic things back in my life.
You just didn’t know one thing about me. I’ll rise and shine but you will regret!
It doesn’t end here!
Some break ups might be nasty and some may turn you into another person. It’s not easy to cope up when you expect something from someone special whom you thought will never go away or maybe you knew. But does it matter now? Life mantras to live a happy life is lost. Life is tough it teaches you to embrace whatever come your way. Plain and Simple! The diary of the alone girl closes here but with a promise with new chapters next time.
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